I missed a few weeks of Fatday. Honestly, my walking goals push aside a lot of other things in my life, including blogging. Since that last post I've been up to 256.0, down to 251.5 and now here I am at 253.0. I alternate between being irritated that I'm heading into a half-marathon in the 250s (And just plain irritated- here's a joke: apparently I'm going on vacation with my ex-boyfriend that isn't speaking to me! Maybe we can sit together on the plane, BAER!!), and realizing that there's two months between now and then- plenty of time for me to lose some weight and my ex to pull a hamstring.
A little blow-up on the WeightWatchers board brought home to me the fact that we are not all in the same boat. My boat is headed to a marathon or bust. Other boats have different destinations. I follow the blog The Anti-Jared by a man who has lost more than 200 pounds on WeightWatchers. He's been writing prose poems lately about what his motivation is, and it's all about his wife. The latest one most clearly brings the point home.
Women who want to lose weight are generally advised against putting the same kind of importance on their husbands. Given the unreliability of men and the cultural servitude of women, that's not the worst advice. Anti-Jared makes himself extremely vulnerable living in someone else's boat, but I can appreciate the bravery and the heroic idealism of marriage that he is demonstrating. And my own boat is not unsinkable- if I were to have a stroke or otherwise become incapacitated my boat would capsize too. No boat is entirely safe.
The only thing I have going for me is that week after week, month after month, year after year, the captain is getting more and more experience. And not only that, but the journey itself is worth something. I'm coming back from a 44 pound re-fattage after throwing myself into some stormy seas. I recently had a long conversation with someone who made is so clear that there are other directions I can steer my boat- it's a big world out there!
(Picture of Laser World Championship 2008. I raced in the USA Women's Junior Championship in 1992.)
Pretty boats
Posted by: Daniel Kim | May 30, 2009 at 11:15 AM
Hey LC, I've been reading your blog ever since you linked to it on the WW board (when I posted, searching for fellow bloggers), and I just wanted to say how much I enjoy your posts. There are so many crappy blogs out there and yours is definitely not one of them. :-) I'm always glad when my feed reader shows you've written something new.
Posted by: Sarah | June 02, 2009 at 10:49 PM
Oh hey, I read your blog too! I haven't commented because when I'm driven to comment it's usually because I'm all opinionated (who-da-thunk) and I _try_ not to bother peeps on their own turf.
Thanks for the compliment! I try not to write a sucky blog. ;-)
Posted by: loafingcactus | June 03, 2009 at 09:03 AM